20 Again....sort of

Dreams are a strange thing.  I tend to wake from those erry, strange dreams that sometimes happen and have a hard time sleeping again.  That happened tonight, so hear I sit to write.  Tonight's dream involved being back in college with my roommates.  Strange that I have had this dream before, basic concept was that the three of us were back in our apartment....but this time we were all in our 40's but trying to act like we were in our 20's again!  I have had this dream before.  And I wonder why my sub-conciseness congers up this dream every few months or so?  I think it has alot to do with my "coming of age" so to speak.  I wont say that I was a geek or nerd prior to college but I think I came into my "own shell" while I was there and became comfortable with who I was.  I think college does that to everyone to a great degree but to me alot more.  Prior to college, I was part of a click of guys that were the "cool kids" but it was more by circumstance then actually being cool.  I think my personality was my ticket into the group.  I was not the star athlete or the best looking guy or by really any standard the best at anything but my personality would always get me in....I was the life of the party.  In college, EVERYONE was the life of the party.  So I had to really explore me.  My roommates and I developed a very close bond but my one roommate Bill was a like a brother.  There was not much that we did not do together.  We developed a very strange study habit that, to this day, I still think about.  We would pile into a bed with our books, a pizza, and study and talk...usually in our boxer shorts only.  Bill taught me to be very comfortable in my skin.  Very often the subject would turn to sex and that would cause a typical physical reaction to occur....a hard on!  We had no problems with showing each other these things in a very innocent way.  Nothing ever happened and I dont think either of us were looking for anything to happen sexually.  It was all innocent but it really allowed me to realize that I was much more then my personality....I was a young man and discovering someone else that way was very cool.   We discussed our courses of study, college life, home life, girlfriends and just about anything else that was on our minds during those nights.  I think he was equally exploring who he was too.  I find it interesting that we were soo amazingly comfortable with each other that nothing sexual ever occured but we touched each other many times.  I wish we could be that open and honest with our best friends now.  But today, I think we would just be called perverts.  I see Bill every few years now and then and it never fails, we are two college kids again acting like we did not have a care in the world.  I guess when I analyze the dream a little more, maybe my psychy is wanting to find that again.

Career Paths

I often wonder what it is like to be in another line of work.  Not change careers but what if I had taken a different path in life and chosen a different career path.  I always thought if I failed in Architecture School that I could go into advertising....and then for a long while, I thought accounting would be cool.  I dont know but it is fun to think about from time to time!  I would be able to drive a sports car instead of an SUV or truck.....I would be able to take weekends off!  But I dont know, the grass is always greener sort of thing.  But I think, what if........alot!

After a very long day.... It is nice to be home......can anyone say lemon whiskey sours!



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Ramblings on a Saturday

It has struck me the last few weeks that guys really do like to pull on their junk and I think it is primal instinct for the male species!  I have an 11 yr old son who does the same thing....where did he learn it from?  I have observed all of his little buddies doing it as well!  And then I realized, I do it too!  And all of their fathers seem to pull their junk as well! I was at a neighborhood BBQ last weekend and the guys would give themselves a little pull in very discrete ways but they all did it.  Kind of funny, really.  It is sort of a little tug to just make sure that we have the fullest length possible.  I know  that many years ago when I was in college, there was a myth going around that you could extend your length if you pulled it constantly, something about pulling the "extra" from inside your abdomen....my roommate tried relentlessly for months.....I think he finally realized that the size is the size!

I am still trying to figure out advertise my blog....not sure how to get it out there....last week some anonymous guy asked me a few questions and it was great answering them.....I think that is how you do it, slow and steady.

Being Nude

One of the blogs that I look at on a daily basis is More Ordinary People  it is a cool website and I really enjoy looking at the pics. I often wish there were ways to tell some of them how nice their pics are but I know that would be incredibly hard to put that info with every pic.  But this morning, I was wondering....how many of the pics were staged or was the person really naked doing the mundane tasks that he was doing.  One dude was sawing a piece of lumber in the kitchen....another was digging in the dirt with a shovel.  My question is do they do those things naked all the time and someone happened upon them and took their pic or is it staged?  Some of them I know are staged and it is obvious...but there are others.  I know my buddy and brother have popped in un-announced a few times and caught me with no clothes on...no biggie but I wasnt working on a construction project or digging in a dirt pile!  So I wonder...............

I do have to say that this picture

Got me wondering how comfortable the guy on the left was being nude with the other guys who are a little more hung.  I am like the guy on the left, a grower not a shower....I tend to turtle most of the day with just the head and about an inch or so hanging....there is another pic that shows this dude frontal and his balls are pretty big like mine so his ever hangs below his balls.  It is obvious that he is pretty comfortable with these guys and that is pretty cool.   I have said before, I wish that I could find someone like that to hang with.

Answers to a few Questions

YEAH for me....someone asked questions!  Thanks for reading and inquiring.

I decided to make a post out of it instead of responding in the comments.   Anonymous Brother Bear asked:

Do you have a partner?   No, that is something that I have finally come to terms with that it is conceivable that I will not be lucky in that department.  I have had a few meaningful relationships but not a partner for life.  My situation gets complicated as I have a 12 yr old son that lives with me so guys tend to shy away if kids are involved but I know that ultimately it is more important to give my son a good home then to search for a partner.  Who knows the future holds, I am open to anything.

What's your most intimate memory?  I think a weekend in Key West with a guy that I lived with for about two years back about 12 yrs ago.  We went down for a long weekend with another couple and stayed at Alexander's B & B...it was a great place and I think we were in the bedroom more then anything else that weekend.  It was a perfect weekend.  I stretched my limits by even having a foursome with the other couple, it was really awesome but not something that we wanted to try again but at the time, and in the moment, it was great.

How did you relate to the surfer guys who stripped down to change to dry clothes and not relate to the guys in the cigar bar?  Well I think nostalgia probably played into that alot, I think when you are young, it is easy to make friends in the neighborhood and that just moved to surfing, skiing, swimming....so it was easy to "be" in that group of surfers.  It was the natural progression and I was part of that progression because I was part of them when we were kids.  With the cigar group, we have egos to contend with....everyone is in there own little world and I guess that I would have to go there every night in order to become comfortable and part of their clik.  I think now, guys...especially guys in their 40's....start to size each other up and it is hard to move in because you are bringing alot of baggage with you.  Another friend of mine said that I should make the first move to show them I am a nice guy....I should.

Will you do it on the first date?   Depends on the situation and how we feel about each other.  It is not out of the question but usually not something that happens.

Do you like to have your berries bathed in saliva? UMMM....HELLO....I AM A GUY....OF COURSE!!!

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Buddies

I was watching a really really bad movie last night called "Lucky Bastard"....it was a terrible movie but the character in it was searching for something and could not find it...he finally discovered that what was missing was a friendship.  I have stated before, I have the most incredible set of friends but would really like to find a special friend that I could hang with, have dinner with, watch a movie but more to.  There are sometimes when you just want to be naked with someone, lay on the couch and watch a movie in each others arms.  There is a guy that cuts my lawn and he often brings his friend with him.  He is always telling me about their adventures in surfing, picking up chicks, drinking, etc.  And he often will mention that they sleep in the same bed when they are drunk.  I think it would be cool to be so close to someone that you were very secure with your bodies and sexualities to be able to shower together, piss together, sleep in the bed...etc....all the while really be friends and not in a sexual relationship.  I think it would be an interesting concept.  Sometimes I just have comments and funny thoughts that I think I would like to share with someone but kind of feel strange telling some of my friends.  I guess that is why I try to blog!  Case in point was this morning, "lil bobby" was looking really nice this morning, kind of semi hard but nicely hung....wish someone had seen it!