Vacation Starts

Why is it that I can not be like every other person in America and relishes in the idea that they are going on vacation in two days.  For me it is a nightmarish situation and I hate the days leading up to the actual vacation.  Today is a horrible day and it is only going to get worse as I am trying to cram everything I need to get done into today and tomorrow.  I wish, just once, I could leave to go on vacation and not have this empty feeling in my stomach like everything will come unglued while I am away!  It freaks me out!  And to top it off, it is raining in sunny South Florida today....I hate driving with the other idiots when it is raining.